As we enter the new year, naturally we reflect on the last one. For me it was a very busy year, and one full of changes.
Our house got flooded and remolded.
Ben started a new position at work.
Our third beautiful girl was born.
I had two surgeries.
One kid starting first grade and one starting pre-K.
Oh yeah! We did get a two week vacation! That was needed!
The first half of the year was honestly non stop hospital stays and visits. March to June was full of daily hospital life between myself and our baby. That's every day, hospital, for 4 months. I know I basically said the same thing twice, but it still doesn't sink in for me to this day. It was a crazy time. The second half of the year I felt like I was on house arrest. The baby had some minor breathing problems that required a breathing machine every four hours which kept us home most of the summer. When school hit with two girls on different schedules I was not prepared for the "ball and chain" feeling. 7:45am - take oldest to school. 11:30 - put middle child on bus 2:45 - pick up both from school. All the while having a newborn to adjust to. So the 2nd half of the year I was home or within a 10 mile radius of home each day. Now I remind myself it could be worse. I've talked to Moms who's babies were in the hospital for double, triple the amount of time. I've talked to Moms (including my own) who have kids in three different schools at a time! I have no idea why that concept shocked me so much, but its going to be pretty much the rest of my parenting career, so I'll deal. But even though its not so bad and I have so much to be grateful for I was shocked by how lonely I got. Its not a sob story at all or anyone's fault, its just how I felt if I'm being honest. Isolation can make a normally busy bee feel very depressed. But we take it day by day. I would honestly break if my girls weren't so amazing. I've been blessed with easy babies. So luckily I find joy it whats important.
That's why my blog became pretty much non excistant. I actually wrote quite a bit that I never published because when going back and reading a finished entry, almost every one came accross as very whiny, moody, just plain sad and annoying.
Having a baby in the days of a camera phone makes updates on her grow easier then ever. It also feels so crazy that the last time I had a newborn at home my phone didn't have social media on it. Crazy feeling right? So documenting her life has been a cinch.
That's pretty much the update. Snooooozzzzeee! (You see what I mean by whiny, moody, sad and annoying? Sheesh!)
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