I finally had my appointment with my family practitioner yesterday and was super excited to get my blood pressure under control and take control of my health! Only problem was, my blood pressure was perfect. I stayed for three hours and had multiple checks. All perfect. The Dr compared my pressures from my OB over the past two years and she said it was only high while pregnant and only slightly elevated at one visit while I wasn't. I was under the impression that it was very high all the time. I take my blood pressure at home and it seemed ok, but I thought maybe the cuff was off. So she said that being on medication would actually be a risk for my health. The plan is to take my pressures at home daily and keep a log for three weeks and come in for a follow up...buuuuuut if its ok that puts me back to square one.
On one hand I am beyond grateful to not have permanent high blood pressure! Like really grateful! On the other hand I was hoping to finally have a solution for my pregnancies. Mmmmmm.
Now Im focusing on loosing weight and getting back into a healthy lifestyle. Over the past two years, I've gained 40 lbs. You read that right. I know you might be in shock because I look so amazing but, hee, its true! ;) I've always been an emotional eater, and after having a stillborn baby, I went to food to numb any pain. That happened to be daily. I don't usually open up about my weight. I have a stern belief that when someone talks about weight constantly it makes them put on 10 lbs like a camera. I suddenly only see problem areas on someone who always complains. So Im working on that now. I never make a goal to be skinny or like those super cut women on magazines. If I were to get there, I mean, great! But I never make it a goal. My goal is to feel better! It helps to have curves because even during my teen years I've always wore a LG shirt and my bra size hasn't changed much either, most of my weight is in my stomach. Even with it smaller though, my chest never shrinks down. Oh darn! Right? Yeah, no Im good with that. Lol Same story with my hips. But the belly has got to go! So thats my next project. We'll see how that goes. I just havent been motivated to get in shape at all the past two years, but I gotta get it together.
Mentally, I'm better then I thought I would be. I'm just moving forward. I did start day dreaming in the waiting room of finally have a risk free pregnancy. I dreamed of no NICU, and a baby at a healthy weight. Of me and Ben not being able to contain our smiles and tears. Mainly of the girls finally getting that baby they've been dreaming of helping out with. That mainly what I want to experience, is having a baby my girls can enjoy helping out with. They would be the best big sisters! I love being a Mom to them and I so want that expanded! For now, Im excited about finding our first house and my summer semester of school. Looking forward to summer time and preparing Michelle for Kindergarden.If a pregnancy were to come with that, it would be great. But for now I still have so much to be grateful for!
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