Woa BABY!

Last night around 9 pm I felt some major movement, and the night before Ben felt the baby for the first time! There is definitely a baby in there! So that was exciting!

My Dr apt was today and I was one on one with my Dr discussing a birth plan. After bringing my notes to Ben we decided on a VBAC. There are def risks there but the same goes with a 3rd c-section. So I tried finding what would be a route that would give us the option of more kids if any. I know I could do more c-sections, but each one would make it more and more risky. I also don't like planned c-sections, if there is no emergency involved I wouldn't want to be cut open for no medical reason. My 2nd one was easier to recover from but has made this pregnancy more difficult. I couldn't imagine 3x the scar tissue and being pregnant again.

I feel really good about this, I had planed to have Michelle "natural" and Scarlett I wanted the same, but that wasn't even an option for me. So now that it is I'm holding on to it and keeping the faith.

But Ben and I have always wanted a big family, my pregnancies have made that seem impossible at times and even selfish. I'm asked often if I want more kids, and in my heart I'd take a whole bundle! I love big families! But with the risks I never thought that could happen so I started to put it aside to not get my hopes up. So I put my mind set to thinking this could be the last, it would be stupid to hope for more after what I've been through. In the end we know that we have a desire to be parents and love it so and don't want to put a stop to that hope.

So we have the ok! And we're dreaming big now! I have all the faith that things will turn out right and as long as I show a will and a want for these babies, they'll keep coming to me and all I have to do is be the Mom I was born to be and protect them and support them.